More Than Believing in Myself
The weather could not have been more perfect today! I felt as if God had made it that way just for me. Today brought me so much clarity. I sat outside my lunch break to take it all in. I have been thinking to myself that as far as my blog is concerned, have I really been doing my best? Have I really been giving it my all? And my answer was no, I haven't. As I said in my first blog, I didn't think that anyone was going to read it. So when I launched it and it had become somewhat "successful" so quickly, it intimidated me in a way. When I thought that I was only going to get maybe 50 reads, then actually ended up seeing a comma, and then on to a double digit. I was so taken aback, that I began to fall back. Yes I still posted on the blog, but I heavily fell off of my social media presence. And in the world today, social media is the ruler of all things. So if you have any chance of survival, you must make your presence known consistently. I didn't really want much more attention, so I shied away for the most part. Today sitting outside is when it dawned on me. Its only about believing in myself, but also giving my best. I feel like I am to the point now where I know I CAN do it. It has now become a matter of will I. All I have ever done my whole entire life was write. Whether it was a song, a blog or simply a thought I didn't want to forget; I write. So the capability is ever so apparent. The thing that is going to make all the difference in this scenario, is the will to do it. I have never been a heavy social media poster, I have never been one to really broadcast every low and high. But I hear that success is usually only one step out of your comfort zone. There are so many things I have let just fall by wayside and never consistently give my all to. I don't want to let this go, no matter what may come of it, if anything at all.